Saturday, August 20, 2005

incomplete by BSB

hehe... latest song philia...
dunno whats up with me and songs with nice piano beginnings...



Incomplete
Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me
I cant find no rest
Where Im going is anybodys guess
Ive tried to go on like I never knew you
Im awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all Im going to be is incomplete
Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
Its written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake
I dont mean to drag it on, but I cant seem to let you go
I dont wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go
Backstreet Boys

Friday, August 19, 2005

if i fall in love...

taken from a dearest brother's blog...which he quoted from another blog. but i too feel that it is a necessary reminder for the whole lot of us, who often forget the true meaning of the word love, and the true intention of love, and to whom love should be directed to.


i am guilty of such trangressions.


"Ya Allah, jika aku jatuh cinta, cintakanlah aku pada seseorang yang melabuhkan cintanya padaMu agar bertambah kekuatanku untuk mencintaiMu. Jagalah cintaku padanya agar tidak melebihi cintaku padaMu.
Ya Allah, jika aku jatuh cinta, izinkanlah aku menyentuh hati seseorang yang hatinya bertaut padaMu agar aku tidak terjatuh ke dalam jurang cinta semu.
Ya Allah, jika aku jatuh cinta, jagalah hatiku padanya agar tidak berpaling dari hatiMu.
Ya Allah, jika aku rindu, jagalah rinduku padanya agar tidak lalai merindukan syurgaMu.
Ya Allah, jika kau halalkan aku merindu kekasihMu, jangan biarkan aku melampaui batas sehingga melupakan aku pada cinta hakiki dan rindu abadi hanya kepadaMu.
Ya Allah, engkau mengetahui bahawa hati-hati ini telah berhimpun dalam cinta padaMu, telah berjumpa dalam taat padaMu, telah bersatu dalam dakwah padaMu. Telah berpadu dalam membela syariatMu. Kukuhkanlah ikatannya, ya Allah. Kekalkanlah cintanya, tunjukilah jalan-jalannya. Penuhilah hati-hati ini dengan nurMu yang tiada pernah pudar. Lapangkanlah dada-dada kami dengan limpahan keimanan kepadaMu dan keindahan bertawakal di jalanMu."

whats with the hiatus again?

as many of you may ask... haha...


well, its just the school heebie-jeebies all over again... lessons are getting along fine, apart from the fact that they begin early and end late... to the point that we come to school before dawn and leave school after dusk! ok i am exaggerating here... but the point is that time has really been very squished and it is rather difficult to squeeze in other things into the already packed schedule that i have.


that's my main complaint for the past weeks.


so now here are the updates!


ever since the last entry, of course many things have happened... DUH!
more important stuff to me are:


1) i have been elected president of the SHS Club, a branch of the SU. and with it comes the whole chore of running a committee... and having to initiate plans so that the club and the management committee can grow... so thats quite a headache actually. but i will do my best. i actually got quite a hyped-up committee, and we just hope that our choices work out to the best.


2) i did NOT get the goh chok tong promise youth award, which is a scholarship for non-traditional areas of interests and study. according to a minister i spoke to, there were 52 competitors for the award, and i was ousted. well. you get some, you lose some. but damn, i need to seriously ask for a sponsorship.


3) NTUMS has already decided on the 19th exco, and i am proud to say that some of my dearest friends have been given the mandate to lead this year round. i wish them the best of times, and pray that all will be well.


4) NYPMS is also being set up, and i have been in constant liaison with the relevant people to try to consolidate efforts in this matter. pray for me in this matter.


5) i want to go to aceh end of this year, to help out the darussalam youths under whom this project is drafted. but attachments are in that period as well, so it may be difficult to do so. unless of course i ask the clinical coordinator to modify my schedule. hmm... but i will miss a few people's birthdays... those whom i love too. compromise compromise...


6) finally realising the need to lose some weight, and taking more definite steps to it. am going for more active activities at least twice a week, which includes swimming, and brisk walking... and as rejab, syaaban and ramadhan are already right at our doorstep, the fasting should also complement my efforts. i hope to lose at least 20kg by end of the year.


7) studiotraffic, my internet income generator, is finally paying off. i got my first cheque for USD 40 in july, and hope to see the money grow even more in the times to come.


8) i love you all very much. and i miss you very much.


there...done!