second to third

for everyone who is wondering why i have been missing, it is because last weekend, i cooped myself up in the room to do some work... the first two weeks as reported were much more relaxed, but it appears that the work load is increasing, as my supervisor hands me a majority (actually, all) of her patients, and i really havent had the time to do much else.

well. actually i do. but the weekends are really cherished nowadays as extra time for me to catch up on the things that i wanted to read, and the work that i promised myself to finish.

so i kept myself off the streets and gallivanting around, so that i could do what i needed to.

then i realised that i need to go gallivanting this week, because its my last weekend in sydney.
and then i realised how very fast the weeks have passed.
and how much more i need to make these next weeks matter.

i had my mid-way eval last friday, and i am generally doing ok... just some weaknesses which i have personally identified, and agreed that it is not actually a weakness, but more of a culture or style that is not mine. so i cannot be marked down on that. so not much worries there.

but really, the days are just flying past in the hospital.

i am seeing patients back to back while needing to prepare for my own presentation, and the projects. and needing to attend tutorials, and wanting to attend grand rounds at the hospitals. and arranging to speak to other professionals, and being attached to them for some time to observe. its really a juggle... and i got to show that despite the juggling act, i am coping and that i am keeping abreast of what i need to do. haha. not easy. and my sup is watching my every move, i know.

i find myself in awe sometimes of the breadth and depth of knowledge that the senior OTs have. i am choking on answers still when i am asked a physiological question, and that really bums me out. but at the same time, i am seeing different sort of management which is not traditionally seen in singapore, and that is really pushing up my learning curve steeply. i find that there is a lot more that i need to learn, and my 4 weeks here is truly insufficient to fully grasp what is happening over in St Vincent's. now i know why i needed 6 weeks.

sigh.

but it all happens for a reason.
i have come to terms with me being here only 4 weeks.
and i need to plan around the time that i am here...

so i hope that these next 1.5 weeks will be a blast and that it will be filled with many many tales which i can tell when i come back!

pray for me and wish me luck!