wallowing in

self-pity is just pathetic sometimes. and i am guilty of it too. when in order to justify my actions, i make myself the "victim" and push the blame to others, for things that do not happen to me, or for expectations that remain unfulfilled. sometimes you just cannot help it, right? 

but at other times you ARE the "victim" of the actions of others. yet others just fail to see. 

things sometimes happen for a reason, or happen based on the past.

now while you complain of what happened, did it cross your mind how you treated others a year ago when we did come around? and in your state then, could you have gone anywhere, since some days later, you were still disabled? its always been a case of remembering only when you are feeling crappy, and you blame the world for "leaving" you to feel like that.

do you expect then to be treated fairly, when you have not been fair in your own treatment towards others?

we are all sometimes blinded by our own self-pity, but we don't do enough self-reproachment to get out of it.

grow up, Nizar.