qalbil khali

today i gave you up again.
against my desires, i gave up the chance to be with you.

and frankly, i don't know whether to feel proud of myself for fighting against myself.
or to feel stupid and regret for that one chance that i may never have again.

the feeling inside me now... the emptiness... i'd rather be torn apart, so that the emptiness will not exist.

the pain of love. the pain of love. the pain of love.