had a visitor.

haha.
thanks for dropping by, you know who you are.

but no, i am not always sad, though i do carry remnants of it around sometimes.
people have said that sometimes i seem to be infinitely melancholic.

and to me, the sadness serves to remind me.
of many things.

and most importantly, of Him.

my internal reflections are here as you read them.
things i cannot say, things i prefer not to say, things that should not be said.

and maybe because i am so happy externally, and to the point of being high, i need to tip the balance the other way sometimes. hence, the morose and sombreness here.

but that's me.

:)