a flyer came in promoting teaching as a career.
and my mother asked me to take it up, quoting better prospects.
exactly what she implied by better prospects, i don't know.
but its getting very clear to me that she does not seem to think what i do is anything worthy.
she does not seem to think that my work is real work.
for whatever reasons.
and i am hurt by this attitude.
for many reasons too.
and i am sad that she only has this narrow view of what life should be like.
and i don't share the same view. unfortunately for the both of us.
i want her to be happy, but i don't want live on her terms only.
because its not fair to me. not after all i have done to get where i am.
life can get real crappy when you don't see eye to eye.
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hahaaa...the age old story of mum vs child. cousin dear, if it's not about work, it's lifestyle, choice of partner, choice of friends, attire, lack of religiousness, SOMETHING! ANYTHING!
unless you happen to be one the (un)lucky few who agree with everything your mum says and thinks, then situations like these are bound to arise every now and again...
i can completely understand how you're feeling, and i won't tell you to take it easy, or "as long as you are happy with what you do, that's all that matters etc"....suffice to say i know how you feel...
i feel like that most of the time, tapi sekarang dah fed up sikit la...not too affected by it anymore :D
good or bad??
haha... but you know... sometimes when they do it... it happens during the most inopportune moments - when you are not feeling that good about yourself, and demotivated. and then fuel is added to the fire. or rather salt to the wound. like... wow. how coincidental can it be??
i am deafening myself la. but i wished i had enough courage to stand up to her and tell her what i feel. she doesn't see the good of where i am now, and how i am setting myself up in the long-term.
so macam very immediate gratification kind of living... and since when was i that impatient you know? i mean siapa tak nak ada gaji lebih, and to be able to spend and give more money to parents and all that? of course i want la! but i cannot do it the way she expects me to NOW. and she takes me to task for that. haiz.
but i am not THAT bitter. just tipping over slightly.
haha.
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