angry

i know myself well enough to say that i am not perfect. and in spite of trying to improve myself, i still have many hurdles to clear, and i am not getting closer even as i speak. but damn it, i don't need you being there and yet might as well not be. really. sometimes i feel that i am blocking my own path with you. why am i doing this to myself? is it really worth my time, my pain, my effort? you are going to be just you at the end of the day. and i don't want to find myself just as stinking stagnant as you. damn it. i am pissed. really really pissed. go with others you are more comfortable with, those who are as stinking as you are. like i said before and i say it again, you will never see. it does not pay to love i tell you.