the truth

i guess the reason i am always getting angry is this - that i expected more from a relationship that has stood against so much for so long. i expected you to be able to know my nuances better than others, which is why i am more lenient to those who just made their acquaintance with me. but you should know better, above all others. and the fact that you demonstrate ignorance and apathy even after all that time, irks me. it just points to a sad fact, that the worth that you place in trying for my sake, is really not much.

really, even after all these years, nothing.
i feel that, you know.
and it hurts a lot.