i only have 24 hours in a day.

therefore i apologise beforehand, if i fall below expectations.
therefore i seek respite before i am accused of neglect.
therefore i ask for understanding, lest i am perceived otherwise.

this is an important semester for me, and a stressful one.
and they said that time management is of the essence.
and i am beginning to see it ever so evidently.

i know i have not been around, i know i have not been there, i know i have not performed what i used to do.

in times when perhaps i am needed, i have to make that choice.
even if it may seem cruel.

you all know that i love you a lot.
you all know that i am here, if and when you need me.
and you all know, that i want to give more, even as i speak.

but, time is not on my side.
selfish it may be, but again i reiterate: time is not on my side.

pardon me this time. i am in no power to fight against what needs to be done.

ida, nura, rita, ratna, shikin, azfar, rezuan, taufiq, shafur - among those whom i address this to.
i just pray that you all remain blessed and guided through this time.