as logical as it is.

its not quite a good feeling being who i am.
and knowing the things i do.
because i am able to justify things for everyone else.

there is always a logical reason, always a pseudo-excuse to cover up and explain the actions of others.

"of course people won't pay much attention to you. they have so many other things to think about, to plan for. their lives move ahead even when yours remain stagnated you know. you don't have to think about these things because you are still uncommitted, unbirdled and unfettered by the demands that press others into motion, things that need handling in this current time. yes nizar you are not the center of the universe, things do not orbit around you. people have priorities, and you have got to realise, you are not one of them. so can you blame them?"

yes i can.
because i don't think it takes much to make me feel needed or remembered.

selfish? i know.
but i couldn't care less.

just because there is a justification, does not mean that i will listen to reason.