slighted

i know i am not the most perfect of people.

i know that i can speak badly of others, and have so many things to say about them, especially when they irritate me. and yet when i am in front of them, i can put up so many pretenses that they don't know it is them that i am irritated at.

and i know that i sometimes shoot my mouth off when i am with my closer ones. and that's because i believe that they won't take offence, because i say things in jest. because i believe that i don't need to have any pretenses around them.

but i know i go too far sometimes.

and people get slighted.

for that, i apologise.

but for my beliefs, i guess i can also feel slighted, because what i thought i could come to expect, apparently is not true.

but its ok.

'cos really, of what value am i to concern others?