burn out blues

i used to think that i was a very patient person. but even patient people have their bad times dun they? i guess all this talk about recharging myself is really not going anywhere...i feel myself straining to regain control...but at the same time, i got the tendrils creeping out and lashing at those around me. i pity the innocents hurt by my insensitivities.

example, a wall's ice-cream boy (oklah not so boy, maybe in his teens, but still innocent) came to my door when i was teaching tuition. even before he could say anything, i put my hand up and said, "i am sorry, i have no time for this." and closed the door in his bewildered face. all i heard from him was, "but sir would you like to consider...BAM!"

well, he's gone now. i hope i did not put him off too badly. he was just trying to earn his living. uuurrrrggghhh. sometimes i just want to not be involved. so that i wont feel bad about anything. but now, i am feeling the crappiness that follows doing something as ungracious as that.

wall's ice-cream boy, i am sorry.

here's what i would say to you if i could...

"I had a bad day again
She said I would not understand
She left a note that said I’m sorry, i
I had a bad day again

She spilled her coffee broke a shoelace
Smeared the lipstick on her face
Slammed the door and said I’m sorry, i
I had a bad day again

And she swears there’s nothing wrong
I hear her playing that same old song
She puts me up and puts me on
I had a bad day again

She said I would not understand
She left a note and said I’m sorry i
I had a bad day again
Nooo...

And she swears there’s nothing wrong
I hear her playing that same old song
She puts me up and puts me on
Oh I had a bad day again

She said I would not understand
She left a note that said I’m sorry, i
I had a bad day again
She left a note that said I’m sorry, i
I had a bad day"

Bad Day by Fuel

burn out sucks.