one night only

"You've got one night only, one night only
That's all you have to spare
One night only, let's not pretend to care
One night only, one night only
Come on big baby come on
One night only, we only have 'til dawn

In the morning this feeling will be gone
It has no chance going on
Something so right has got no chance to live
So let's forget about chances, this one night I will give..."

So its one night only i have left before my flight.
feeling very overwhelmed by everything... the culmination of my sweat and tears in planning for this trip that almost did not happen... and the residual uncertainties... things which really have yet to fall in place.

i keep getting reminded of the gift i received yesterday, and it keeps getting me into tears.
and i keep breaking down when thinking of my departure, and i just had a good cry looking at the confirmed flight.

i know its just one month. but its a whole month of being without.
it will truly be a struggle for me.
and i keep asking why i decided to go.

the answer was easy. and so i asked the Reason to cast away my pain and doubts.
and i rested the outcomes in Him.

i most probably won't write tomorrow night, given that i would be on the flight by then.

i will try to post regularly when i am there.

and i promise to make the entries happy.

one night each time.