faithless

in the recent months, i have been writing about the value and evaluation of friendships. i noticed that i keep talking about it to people even, but seldom do i really come to a conclusion. its like i am constantly in limbo, even to myself.

never knowing what to feel, or say, or do.
and never being able to keep to what i feel, or say, or do.

it is almost as though i am losing faith in my own tenacity, and in believing the truth of friendship.

and that is a scary thing to happen to me.